Countdown

Harro, so it's 2 days left until new year and everyone is talking about new year's eves. People keep on asking me where will I celebrate new year and with whom? I swear, it hits me. It hits me whenever people talk about new year because new year has always been about him. You can see my face changing when I hear the words n e w y e a r. I wish I could skip January 1 or can I just sleep all night long? I'm scared, I really am. How would I be when 12 am strikes on the first day of 2013? How would I feel when I see fireworks? Will I breakdown? Will I have fun? How about him? I have a lot of unanswerable questions in my head. Worst thing is, I'm 101% sure that I'd have such a bad starter to my new year, to 2013. God knows how shitty I feel right now.

First bad news for 2013, school reopens on the second January. The second day of twenty thirteen. It is so unfair but whatever, I'm gonna rock my senior year's ass off. So, I'm done with my back-to-school shopping. Uniforms? Checked. Books? Checked. School shoes? Checked. Bag? No, I'll just use the old one. I still can't believe that me and my friends are going to be in form 5 in two days and form 5 is always related to SPM,  I hate that shit. Can I please go back to 2009 when I was a freshy in high school? No, that's it Tira, you're turning 17 in six days. You've g r o w n u p.

Yes, in six days time, on the second day of school, 3rd of January, I'll be turning s e v e n t e e n. I'm pretty excited for my seventeenth birthday even though I know it'll turn out worst because of some reasons. I'm not sure if I should have a bbq or something, the last time I had a birthday party when I was 11 I guess. Speaking of turning 17, I can finally go for driving class! Went to the ceramah thingy this morning (29 12 2012) with Hakim, I swear I was sleepy as fuck. But yes baby, my time has passed. Oh, forgot to mention that I share the same birth date with Wan and my cousin, Ikram so happy birthday in advance boys x