God, listen

Ya Allah, I've never felt this horrible before but tonight, I really can't stop crying thinking about my loved ones. To actually sit on the floor and cry my eyeballs out. I can hardly breathe, I swear I need just one single hug. I can't face it alone, not tonight. Why me? Why do I have to carry the burden on me while my other siblings feel nothing? Where's my dad? What is he doing out there? I need him. It sucks that I can't pray to you right now dear God, screw period. I don't know how to picture my situation right now. The tears keep on falling since the past few hours, what the hell should I do now? I c a n t stop crying. I just need someone to come over and give me one tight and warm hug.