Dear E,
I promise you this is going to sound as cliché as it can get but this is just how I feel. I know jodoh is love-related thing but to me you're my jodoh for a friendship, a wonderful one. Let me take you all the way back to 2010, I guess? Wait what, I'm sorry I couldn't remember a single thing about the first day we talked but who cares, look where we are now. We went through some high school drama to find that you were my roommate, in uni. It was awkward but I had no one during hostel days and you were there, every second. Recalling that you bought me Ferrero Rocher when I was on my time of the month and you still do it even after we're no longer roomies. You were there for me when I was going through a revolutionary heartbreak and you're still here for me as I go through the same fucking heartbreak. I don't know what's inside but you're never tired to hear me out, even though all I talk about is the same damn thing every time. We live in the same neighbourhood but still not close enough to walk for a hug, it sucks. Some nights where I break down and all I need is someone to cry to, I thought of you but I'd never let you waste your time on a crybaby like me. But oppss, I did one time. Remember when I called you and asked you if everything was gonna be alright? I was in pieces and I really needed someone not to comfort me but to hear me cry, I'm sorry about that night. However, I want to thank you for all the time you keep me company throughout all my lonely nights. The right statement is thank you for always manjakan I. I love you, I do.
Dear L,
This girl, 2014, our uni's cafe. You gave me that bitch look, that's how it all started with you hahaha, jokes. She's very rabun everyone, forgive her. Babe, we've only known each other for about four years but you always have the right words to lift me up. I don't know how it is for anyone else but for me, one small gesture that gives me life is something I'll remember forever. I mean, when I lost him, you know who, I knew I was really in a bad shape. Everyone was calling me names, kepeng, walking skeleton, papan, drug addict you name it. You girls might never heard me complaining about how I looked that time but hell I was always insecure and the fact that I knew it was just because my heart was the most broken place to be at. Until this one day, you said my body was hot. Lies. I knew it was a sincere compliment from you and I also knew I was nowhere near 'hot' but that touched my heart, I just thought it's amazing doesn't matter how silly that something is but if it falls at the right time, it could relight the broken bulb. Ever since you quit uni, we hardly see each other but we always tryna make time for each, together with Edlyn. Among three of us, I think you're the spirit of the group. I could say that you're so positive for most of the time considering what you've been through, you're one strong lady and keep it that way alright? I love you.
Girls,
There was this one day when I was told not to see you girls anymore, I had to let both of you know and you guys said "It's okay, we understand'. Despite how sweet and ridiculously understanding you guys were, what the hell was I thinking? For a second I agreed on not seeing these two angels anymore, I'm sorry I was such a douche. I hope nothing will get in the way and create drama in our friendship and I hope our friendship lasts until the end of the world, know that I really love you girls like my sisters by blood. Thank you, for everything.
Kappas
